I'm looking for a job. I need to find a job. Sigh. It's not that I don't enjoy staying home with our daughter; I do. It's just that I'm getting a major itch to get back out there, talk to adults, make some of my own money ... maybe even put my degree to use.
I admire women who can (and do) stay home with their children full time (actually, I guess I'm one of them right now). I think that it's fantastic when children can be parented full time by their parents and not by a daycare provider. My mom stayed home with us until my youngest sister went to kindergarten and I have fond (though abstract) memories of my mom being around when I was very young.
One year later, though, I'm frustrated by the feeling that I'm not doing anything productive. Though, Jason is good to insist, raising our daughter is a very productive use of my time. I'm glad he tells me this. It makes it easier for me to deal; to be reminded that what I'm doing is work and it's a very good thing I'm doing it.
I'm considering starting a business, sewing and selling the baby carriers that I've made for friends. This would take care of the "my own money" thing, but it still doesn't get me out of the house.
My ideal situation is actually NOT to work full time. I would love something that I could do part time, even better, part time when Jason is available to watch Sierra. That way, I can be home with Sierra most of the time but still balance that with being part of an adult world. Ideally, I would get to do something in environmental education, since that's my field; though that's not a requirement as long as I'm doing something I enjoy doing. I'm on the hunt. I'm also open to ideas, if you have any.