Motivation

I was afraid this would happen. Of course after I told you all how well Sierra has been sleeping, the past two nights have been dreadful. Last night was particularly dreadful. It doesn't help that I stayed up watching the Olympics until Jason got home from duty, so it was approaching midnight by the time we got to bed. Then, about 10 after midnight, Sierra woke up. And cried. And jumped up and down. But it was more or less short lived and she went back to sleep. An hour later, she was up again. When she was still crying 20 minutes later, I went into her room, calmed her down, read her a couple of stories, she stood up again, we repeated the process. Finally, she appeared to be asleep, so I headed back to bed. No sooner had my head hit the pillow and she was jumping up and down in her crib again. Sigh. I told Jason it was his turn to go get her. He did (it's now about 2:05am) and brought her back to bed with us. I *think* she slept for a couple hours at this point, but I can't be sure because I'm sleep-deprived. There might have been another waking in there. She woke up again at 4:25, and even though we don't really night nurse anymore, at that point, we did. Because I was tired. And fed-up. And I honestly didn't want to deal with the yelling that would ensue when I told her that milk was "night-night". Sigh (again).

My alarm went off at 6am. I was supposed to go work out with a couple friends. I picked up my phone and composed a text message that said Sierra had slept badly and I wasn't going to make it. I looked at the message. And I thought about it. Then I deleted it and got my ass out of bed. I knew that if I didn't work out this morning that I didn't know when I would do it again. Such is my life. And after my 1/2 marathon in January, I realized that I really do need to be lifting again. Not to mention, as my friend Kate pointed out in the comments of that post, lifting is really the best for an active person to prevent injury. So right now, I'm really glad I went to the gym this morning. Perhaps I will find some time for a nap today. Or maybe actually go to bed early? Maybe ...